Life is so full of ups and downs. Sometimes it's never what we expect. This year has definitely been a rollercoaster of challenges and emotions that no one saw coming. But with each new challenge comes a glimmer of hope and change. Pursue your dreams no matter what obstacles arise. For me, it was finding that needle in a haystack. Trying to find my biological family was going to be a big task and sure full of challenges but I was ready. Make sure to see Part 1 of my post series "More Than Just Decor" to see how it all began.....
Written October 2018
"Everything in life happens for a reason, no matter how hard or how unfair it may be something better will always come out of it" ~Shikha Yadav
Part 2- 2012
In a flash, as if my Mom had never denied the fact that I wasn't my Dads, proceeded to openly talk about the person that came into her life and created me oh so many years ago. I was shocked (but not really) All of my life I'd felt like I wasn't complete and in an instant she turned it all around. My daughter who was a few feet away from me looked at me in total disbelief. "What does this mean?" was all I could see in her eyes. I quickly gave her a reassuring look that it was going to be ok and then proceeded to ask my Mom as many questions as possible. Unfortunately, that bitch of a disease took away a lot of her memory. All she could remember was where they met and certain small details. And the most important detail, his name, was lost in the hallways of her memories past. The most crucial detail was lost forever. So what now? What do I do with this? Should I tell my family? AND what about my dad?
I instantly knew I would NEVER tell my Father or his family. In my mind all he needed to know was that I was his daughter. I did, however, tell my family and even my sisters of this new information. But again my thoughts went to that there someone out there who looked like me. Someone or a family that when I looked in their eyes it would al make sense to me. So I set out to do what I could to find them.......
Until next time,